whitekitsune1

Just letting everyone who is waiting on something know I haven't felt well for the past week. I've been waiting for it to go away but it's not getting any better. Gonna go see a doctor if it doesn't clear up over the weekend. I'm doing good just to get my school work done right now so I'm sorry for putting things off right now. I just feel like I got thrown under a bus it's that bad. I will try and get back to stuff as soon as I can but for now I'm just doing my best to keep my stomach in place.

So I finally had the money to go see a doctor yesterday. They did a couple of tests, same ones the ER did the other Sunday, and said everything was still normal. Although my blood pressure and pulse had been everywhere since than. It was 140/77 at the ER that Sunday, 115/97 at Wal-mart last week when me and my dad went, and it was 128/90 when I went to the doctor yesterday. So yeah, the only thing the doctor could think of it being without being able to do anything further due to me having no money or insurance is that it is anxiety attacks that I'm suffering from. Like multiple ones throughout the day, even if they are just a couple of seconds to maybe a minute long.

So he gave me medicine for it, but it makes me dizzy. I have to take it twice a day, once in the morning and once at night. So I get stuck in bed for an hour or two or else I'm tripping over myself trying to stay on my feet. Anyway, just letting you guys know I'm going to work on coming back to the art world slowly due to both medicine and to add on to helping myself get over these attacks. If it isn't anxiety attacks and the medicine doesn't help, we'll just have to see what happens when I go back to the doctor in three weeks. Anyway, just trying to update everyone since I've been gone for like a week. Sorry for the late reply everyone.

Hey guys. Just letting you all know I'm sorry for taking so long to update everyone but life has a shit ton of lemons it seems and he ain't done sending them our way. So, my dad got diagnosed with skin cancer. He recently just got done getting part of it removed from his face. A whopping $2900 later and he reminds me of scar face, in a sense. We all suffered from a virus spreading through the house around that same time and after taking two of my kids to go see a doctor for it found out it can last up to two weeks and they can't give anyone anything for it cause it's a virus. All we can do it eat fruit for it and certain other types of foods and avoid certain other types of foods. So one day we are feeling better the next we have one or both symptoms of it again.

Problem is that when I took my daughter and son to the doctor the doctor also diagnosed my daughter with a heart murmur so I also have to take her to the hospital tomorrow to get an EKG and chest x-ray done for her. So after all that, I was starting to feel a bit better and decided I would get back to work on everything I'm behind on yesterday while everyone is at church, but when I laid back down while hubby was getting ready for work I suddenly got this sudden pain in my chest. It got hard to breath. Every time I changed positions it just made it worse. Eventually it got so hard to breath I was hyperventilating without trying to and my arms went numb and I just about lost consciousness in my dad's arms. It got so bad he decided we needed to go to the ER so I somehow managed to change out of my nightgown into actual clothes through much agony and we left. The pain had suddenly gone, but I was weak and still out of breath. When I got up the hospital triage took me back and did their thing. My blood pressure was 140/77.

After spending half a day up there, getting poked three times for blood, one x-ray and EKG later they cannot figure out what had happened to me but assured me it was not a heart attack or gall bladder infection or anything of the sort. So we left with more questions than answers and went home. I rested for the day as instructed. Got up this morning and my back is really sore. Figure it would be my chest, but it's not. So now I can't be bent over for long before I can't take it anymore. Sorry you guys were in the dark for so long. Life just seems to hate my family right now. Making it hard for any of us to live without having some problem come up every other day. And the kids don't make it much easier with all their constant bickering and fighting.

I applied to do testing for Final Fantasy 14 MONTHS ago and FINALLY I got an e-mail stating that I had been invited to do the Beta Testing for it! *Squeal* OMG! I couldn't be more happier right now! X3

I knew my daughter's birthday was coming up, but with everything that's happened I didn't realize her birthday was this coming Sunday. DX UGH! I'm a horrible mother...

Alright, so to the point of this journal: I'm not sure how much we will have out of my husband's check this coming Friday, so I want to try and get up a little bit of money today to have in case we don't have much to take her out to do something fun Saturday since her daddy has to work Sunday. If ANYONE can commission me for cash commissions I would be ever so grateful. I wouldn't jump back into this otherwise, but I have no choice in the matter if I want to do something for her 5th birthday. DX

Thank you all in advance. If you are interested either comment here or leave me a note. I will keep in contact throughout the day on here. If I am slow to reply, I am probably just taking care of kids or something. I am willing to do a livestream for the commission so everyone can see them as their made and what not. I only take paypal and it takes about 3 days to transfer to my bank account from there so I am kind of in a hurry to do as many as I can today. Please let me know ASAP. Thanks again. :3